To say I am overwhelmed is an understatement. The reality of this surgery is setting in, and my lofty, lofty goal of running the Peachtree Road Race July 4th is quite hilarious. Turns out I will be lucky to be able to walk 3-4 miles in July, much less go for a 6.2 mile run through Atlanta. Let me back it up.
As I mentioned, it’s very obvious that I need surgery. I finally got the pics and you can see them here.
I finally got a call last week that my insurance was going to cover the procedure, but two of the codes the insurance doesn’t cover up front. I had to pay $1500 out of pocket. I may or may not get some of that back. Thank goodness for my tax refund (that I had not spent yet). The surgery is now scheduled for April 9th, two weeks from today.
I was out of town for work last week and stressed and didn’t have my regular workout options so I decided to hop on the treadmill. I just needed to see how bad it still was and let out some tension. I think part of me needed to justify the surgery.
Two miles down, slow and not wonderful. They actually didn’t hurt while doing them, but I could immediately tell after I finished that I was sore. Add a four hour car ride home on Thursday and I was popping Aleve like nobody’s business.
Friday was my first pre-surgery physical therapy appointment (with a PT at the doc’s office). I quickly realized that my right hip is weak (shocker) and also learned how much I was down playing this surgery. I won’t be able to exercise for 3 months. 3!!! MONTHS. It may be shorter than that, but I am preparing myself for the worst case scenario. No pilates, no running, no elliptical, no spin, no yoga. Just PT.
I’m not going to lie, I burst into tears as soon as I got into my car.
Fast forward to Monday-my pre-op appointment. It started around 1:45 and I left around 4:30. First up, paperwork. There’s lots of technical names that go with this surgery, but I will wait and see what I actually have done and explain it all after the surgery. It’s not just “hip arthroscopy.” The packet that I was told to read ended up being LOTS of paperwork that scared the crap out of me. I flipped the page to see warning below. I totally understand this is to prevent lawsuits from the crazys in the world, but geeze.
Then, lots and lots of prescriptions. Pain pills, naseau pills and who knows what other kind of pills. I will also have to take shots (twice a day for two weeks) to keep my blood thin since I am on birth control (didn’t want to get off) and blood clots can be a risk.
I then had to go check in with anesthesia, have blood drawn, and then final x-rays of my hip. I was exhausted.
I will have one more PT session and also meet with a home health company to give me some machine that I have to attach my leg to at home post-surgery. I have loved ones staying with me because apparently someone will need to turn my leg (or something) and help me get to the bathroom and also make sure I don’t move my hips too much post surgery. All very, very overwhelming.
It’s been emotional. I like to be in control (hate pain meds). I am independent. I don’t like asking people to do things, I like to do them for myself. I don’t like being needy. This is all a learning experience for me and I wasn’t really prepared for what all the surgery entailed. I think I was in denial and thought I would be back at it in no time (hence me signing up for a 10K in July). I most likely won’t be able to run for another 3-4 months and I am okay with that.
I know all of this will make me stronger in the end and will help me learn how to lean on others, but I am struggling.
Do you do well depending on others or do you like to do it yourself? Pain meds- take em or leave em? Did you get a tax refund? If so, please tell me you bought something fabulous and didn’t have to buy a hip.