Again, thank you, thank you, thank you for all of your kind comments, emails, tweets, texts, etc. Martell Malone had his bond hearing today. He got the maximum, 15K for each count. Even though his lawyer tried to say his previous arrests weren’t bad and that he was a long time citizen of Mobile. I know it’s her job, but I would like to ask her if she has daughters. Or would like for some creepy man to grab her while she was trying to train and be healthy. And how does she defend scum. Bleh. He will have his “guilty” or “not guilty” in court on Tuesday and I guess I will know if I have to go to court after that.
Here is what is really going on. I’m a bit of a mess. I think I’ve been pushing it out as much as possible and trying to respond to emails and such when I can. But I am overwhelmed. I am tired. I sobbed uncontrollably last night. Ugly face, close to the dry heaving, sobs. I continue to see that POS running at me. I see his smile. It replays in my head. I am not sleeping. I keep thinking about the emails I have received from other women attacked by him. I hate him. I really, really do.
As some of you know, I am in sales, so I am in and out of my car a lot and around many different people throughout the day. I jumped out of my skin when someone was at their car today and I didn’t know it. She scared the crap out of me, and was just standing at her car. I hesitated helping someone with directions because I thought he was going to snatch me. I know, over time, this will get better. I’ve always been a bit of a Nervous Nelly-this is just beyond my normal. I made an appointment with my therapist for tomorrow. I am hoping this helps. I am still so thankful that nothing worse happened. I am not sure what I would be doing if it had.
What I have been doing to keep myself busy:
Monday: meatless monday. Not a problem for me. not a huge appetite that day. Oatmeal with pumpkin and peanut butter, lunch was eggs and an english muffin, dinner was moms gumbo. I don’t even think I snacked. If so, it was a picky bar. And no, I won’t bore you with pics of eggs and oatmeal. Yall know what they look like.
Tuesday: send cards to friends. I did this, but I can’t tell you who I sent them to!
Today: try a new exercise. This is tricky: my time is running out for the New to Me Cross Training so these are going to be a combo. And it may be lame, but you will see soon enough. I have speed work on the schedule, and I can’t screw that up.
Speaking of speed work. Some of you said you actually liked seeing the workouts for the week. I decided I will just give you the previous week, if I hit my goals, etc.
Last week schedule & results:
Monday – 4 miles easy, comfortable pace (somewhere between 8:30-9:00?) ///4 miles on treadmill sub 9 minute pace
Tuesday – yoga ///4 mile walk with my mom and Feel the Burn Beginner class
Wednesday – 6 miles easy ran 6 miles at avg. 8:51 pace in Mobile
Thursday – Turkey Trot 🙂 2 mile warmup and then 3.1 Turkey Trot
Friday – rest yes, lots of shopping
Saturday – 10 easy/long (goal 8:40-9:15?) yes. minus the A hole who ruined mile 8 and my garmin times because I forgot to stop my watch, the miles were mostly sub 9 minute. I felt great.
Sunday – 4 recovery (thinking around 9:30/10min) OR rest. I had every intention of running when I got back to the Atl. I came home to a leaking freezer. Plan aborted. I rested. I was exhausted anyway.
Hope that makes sense. The bold is my actual. The regular is what Jess sent me.
I really love Instagram. It’s so fun to see what people are up to each day. I decided since I am a self diagnosed Christmas-a-holic that I would participate in Back at Square Zero’s holiday instagram challenge. Want to join me?
Are you an #elfforhealth? Every participated in an instagram photo-a-day thing? Will you join me in this one?