A Runners Mourning…

It’s been a week and a day since my big PR and marathon.  I am insanely proud.  It finally hit me this weekend when someone asked my time and how it went.  Saying 3:59:35 and hearing the “Wow, you broke 4 hours” feels great.  I will admit it.  But…I didn’t realize how much pressure I had actually put on myself…until now.

Towards the end of the marathon training I had told myself I was done.  My body needed a break and my mind needed a break.  Hell, my social life wanted a break.  Giving up late nights and/or sleeping in to go run for 3 hours isn’t exactly fun (I mean yes, the end result is fun but lets be real, 5 am ISN’T fun).  I felt like I was burnt out on the speed work and the focused runs and the constant pressure of hitting a time.  I said I would give myself a break from this.

Yes, I am still training for Goofy with TNT but I have no pressure on that time at all.  Yes, I have plenty of 1/2 marathons planned for the rest of this year and the beginning of the year.  But another marathon, a serious one, not quite yet.  Okay, yes, I have paid for Big Sur for May but I am not 100% sure I can want to do it again.

This “lazy” training is kind of nice.  No specific goals.  No pressure.  Just nice easy, fun running.

So what is the problem?

I think my body mind kinda misses the intensity.  I am mourning the loss of my schedule.  And it’s only been a week.  WTF.

Maybe it’s my Type A personality.  Maybe it’s because my friends are already talking about next years Wineglass Marathon and I don’t want to miss out.  Or maybe its just because I love the challenge.

Who knows.  But I kinda miss it.

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  • I know what you mean – I mean when I've taken voluntary breaks, knowing it was good for me, it was still hard to let go of that regular adrenaline rush, that regular feeling of accomplishment. Just think, every time you finish a workout you have an accomplishment that most people rarely get. It's such a great boost to give yourself on a regular basis.

  • I also decided that for now I'm done with marathon running, at least until I do Goofy in 2013. My goal for 2012 is running fun stuff (barefoot running and trails) and improving my speed. I would like to get faster on 5k, 10k and the half. Last weekend I already set up a race schedule and training plans, I needed something to look forward to, otherwise I can not get motivated 🙂

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